another girl in her own world..

“never argue with idiots. they will knock you down to their level and beat you with experience..”

-B quoting someone when i was in my bimbo mode, vehemently trying to make a point.

some close to the family passed away yesterday. my sincere condolences to the family.

i am asking everyone to please recite al-fatihah when you read this. thank you.

today is one heck of a tiring day. i went raya-ing with my UBD friends. i miss them so it was a fun day. hehehe. we decided to meet up at Bo’s place @10am. yours truly was only about 10minutes late. i think. hehe. summary of the day: we started at 10am, we visited 10 houses and i went home around 10pm. *tiiirrreeedd*

so will update soon..

27th october:

ok, close to a week later. haha. i’m sorry. the malas bug kinda bit me. hard. bangas tia kali dah ceta ani.. lets see if i stil remember wat happened that day. hehe.

first, we decided to meet up at bo’s place at 10am. yours truly arrived 10.10am.. ish. haha. that’s almost on time!!

 atul, bo, bo’s nephew: adam & sur.

the first house that we decided to visit was Sur’s amit. kids were everywhere in that place. suddenly, i’m having second thots of having one of my own. kids intimidate me. well, thoses who are well above 5 years lah.. hehe..

 us with Sur’s family..

after that, we decided to go on a lil road trip. TUTONG!!! hehe.. macam jauh saja bunyinya.. :p ok, bimbo moment: for this roadtrip, i offered my car. i didn’t mind driving. however, arriving at sur’s amit’s place, i remembered, i left my driving license. at home. sigh. *slaps forehead* so sur had to drive. since we do have the same car. hehe.

 sur driving with full concentration. hehe. :p

 the ladies touching up their make up otw…

 being vain

the first place that we visited in tutong was rae’s. his mom cooked just for us.

 @ rae’s   atul rempit at rae’s

next was abby’s place. he was having an open house, so food everywhere. nyaman lagi tuu..

      at abby’s..

theeeeeeeeen, we visited bo’s fiance, dilah. again, food were prepared for us. dilah’s mom cooked when she heard we were coming.

 there’s actually another photo with dilah but i looked fat. so not gna post that. hehe.

from bo’s fiance, we went to bo’s friend, edy. 

(oh! oh! i almost forgot the highlight of the trip! i think leaving abby’s place, someone came up with this stupid game where we wenren’t allowed to utter one word of english he entire time we were in tutong.. whoever did were to be punished by the other members. i’m  proud to say that i was doing well. ME, yang payah2an kan cakap melayu. hehe. …….until we went to edy’s. *grumble* you know, i just realised, i think i came up with the game.. *peace*)

lestuuu, along’s! he is one of the sweetest guy i know. i think we actually spent longer time there than any other houses. except for jill. :p

after along’s, we decided to make our way back to muara. i think another game was played but it wasn’t as meriah as the first one. hehe. bo had to pee real bad. (who wouldn’t after 6 houses??) so we made a pit stop at empire.

 me, jill and sur in the car while atul and bo ‘did their business’.. from there. we picked up mizi and proceed to visit waznah. again, there was food. :s i swear to god, all the weight that i lost during fasting month was gained in that one day.

 mizi @waz. this was NOT a candid pic.. hehehehehehe

next stop was Jill’s. sur wanted to watch the malaysian astronaut thingy. i actually didnt know it was THAT big a deal. frog under the coconut shell, much? :s

   @ jill’s. i look shiny..

after jill, we went to ratna’s and lastly, goose’s place. again, food galore. surprisingly, i could still eat. hahahahahaha. no wonder my siblings call me fat. i eat a LOT!! then again, compared to the stick insects, i probably am.. huhu..

 @ ratna’s  @ goose’s. the baby i’m holding is one of goose’s many nephews/nieces.

 kiiiiiuuuut,no? he is such a docile kid. i remember looking down at him & say “hi, baby.. watcha dooin?” his response : *toink* *toink,toink* eeeeee, geram..

and finally, after that, baliiiik.. all in all it was a successful raya-ing. hehe. so, thats all. i gtg now. remembering that day is making me hungry..

taaaaaa~

its 11.20pm according to my laptop. i’m in the living room, waiting for a certain couple (who are not together). ngok & ngek said that they were gonna come. soon. that was about 20 minutes ago. so, hmmmmmmmm..

oh, no, wait… i hear car doors being slammed..

i was right.. they’re here. so, will be back soon..

UPDATE: 12.57am -  they just left. hehe. i think because i was tired, i was mostly quiet. except for when i was commenting on wedding gowns. :p we were flicking through a bride magazine. why? to help mizi ‘mencari ilham’ so yea. it was a mundane hang out. or maybe its cause Bo isn’t here.

 me looking tired. hehe..

 ngok & ngek.

anyway, to was kind of a fun day. i went ray-ing with B. we spent most of the time with his family. then kami raya to Pie’s place. ia open house. met up with my girls. how i miss them. hehe. had fun. *wink,wink* for pictures, go war’s blog. hehe. there’s always pictures there. :p lestuuuuuu, we went home. B stayed for a while. then, datang tia baby darwisya. hehe. the latest addition to the family. she came with her nenek.  around 10.30pm everyone balik, and i called atul, told me that she’s coming over with mizi. so yea.. here’s some pics. most of the pics that i wanted to post, is already posted in my sister’s blog. so ani cikit saja..

 3rd day of raya. ayah brough us to tutong          3 kids & 1 dad.

 me & B at my place. do i look pale or wat??

 family eating…

 baby lingling hyperventilating.. hehe.. i think she’s scared of B..

 ~i looo00ooove youuuuuuu~

 we did this family potrait on the same day i took my grad potrait. one thing can never understand, my grandma’s dad is from Pakistan. my granddad’s father is Sri Lankan. why me and me siblings look like chinese, i’ll never know.

…..tired. sleepy. nite..

ok, so, i’m writing this on the 3rd day of raya, its not my fault!! the connection sucks lately and i couldn’t find any other way. so here it is:

Selamat Hari Raya to everyone out the who knows i exist. i’m sorry for all the things that i might have done to hurt/offended you. i swear, it was not on purpose. (most of the time anyway.. :p) forgive me and halalkan my makan and minum. also, thank you for those who gave me a text msg but i didnt reply. (yes, david. its you. hehe.)

before i go, funny story: i was in the kicthen, when i heard this high-pitched voice outside. “umi. abi. laju!!” it was kaer. how a tiny thing can produce such a loud voice, i will never know. *shrug* when i opened the door, the lil guy shouts with a very proud look on his face, “SELAMAT HARI JADI!!” hahahahahahahahahahahaha cute, no?

anyways, i’m tired. uncle neil lagi open house tomorrow. will post the pics when its time. in the mean time, here’s some pics.

 kaka ana, me & eyan

 kaka long & abang along

 me & eyan with our nenek

 me with the youngest cousin as her mother looks on. cute ah her headband??

thats its for now. again, happy eid mubarak, everyone!!

p/s: abg long, good luck for your exam! kaka siti, *hugs*

its 7.10 AM. thata the time right now. and i am up. its 7 am and i am freakin up.. why?

because i love my mom. thats why….

UPDATED:

ok, i realised thati sounded very kata2 but you try not being selfish after only 2 hours of sleep AND you had to wake up at the crack of dawn! *grumbles*

sigh. i should be more patient. i’m actually disappointed with myself. i mea, its the month of Ramadhan. it comes once every year and i didn’t have half the brain to take advantage of it.. *deep sigh*

…….or maybe i’m just feeling wonky because raya is coming soon.. *deeper sigh*

i think…… not doing anything in my life right now, is not good for my brain. its turning me (for a lack of a better word) a bimbo. friends of mine, please refrain from commenting on this. :p~

I. AM. BORED.

mizi says that i should do something. stimulate my brain. well, in order to that i need to at least be active physically. so i went jogging yesterday. yes, i know its fasting month & nooo, i’m not trying to kill myself. which is why i only jogged for two rounds. it kinda helped but.. ntah ah… eeeh~ *shrug*

anyway, i’ve decided to read. come to think of it, its been a while since i read anything. :s huh. but somehow, i just don’t feel like reading any of my books. B calls them porn books. i say romantic novels. but each his own, i guess.. actually, i’ve been meaning to read Jane Green’s latest book : Second Chance. ada plang dah bejual di Brunei but haven’t got the chance to buy ‘em yet.

 the book is apparently a bestseller..

anywho, tadi i went down to help my cousin baking some biscuits for raya. alright, i admit, i did not help willingly but i still helped. hehe. while i was there, mamawa was cutting some oranges for Kaer. kinda like a snack for the lil guy. she gave me a piece and OH. MY.GOD. they’re so freakin sour!! so, being the evil person i can be sometimes :angel: i decided i would enjoy watching the kid’s face as he eats the oranges. mwahahahahahahahaha..

unfortunately, it backfired. so there i was, sneaking around the door,when mamawa gave the oranges to Kaer, anticipating. the kid just eats it like it was nothing! he even turns to look at me and say “mawa!” *flashes cute look* … maybe his treshold for sour things is higher than mine. huh.

sigh. i need to get a job soon…

i have posted enough blog for you guys to know that i knew B since we were in primary school. we had the love/hate relationship down to a T. but what you guys didn’t know was that once we went to secondary (high) school we barely talk to each other. B said i was a snob and refused to acknowledge him this one time. then again, i was more popular than he was. i joke, i joke. basically, for the next five and a half years, we knew each other existed but we never said anything to each other. at all.

and so, comes the incident where we were forced (?) to be in the same room again. (student council meeting.. hahaha..) & unsurprisingly, we picked up where we left off. the first conversation exchanged between us was an insult. i kid you not. after more than 5 years. an insult.

so, to cut a long story short, a month after the initial insult was swapped, we grew closer and told him that i liked him. have no idea where THAT came from. we all know rejection can be hard. lucky for me, the feeling was mutual. we had that conversation on 30.9 six years ago. then, after a day of malu-malu babi, we went through the bruneian student ritual where the guy proposes to girl to be his girlfriend. hahaha. honestly, i never understood the reason behind the proposal but expected it nonetheless. :p ok, maybe its not pointless as it help to clear the “are we/aren’t we a couple?” question. huh. anyway, THAT question was popped 2nd october 2001.

last sunday (30.9) me and B wanted to celebrate by breaking our fast at kfc. thats where we had our first date. (hey. we were kids… ish.. :p) but due to unavoidable circumstances (guilt trip anyone?), plans changed. the day kinda sucked. didn’t turn out the way i expected it. i wanted it to be special. i mean it was the only thing in my life that hasn’t changed. sigh. however, B was a sport. he kept saying corny things like “at leaast we’re together….”. hehehe. yeaaa… true. because of what happened in sunday, i was not keeping my hopes up for today (2.10).

i was wrong.

B surprised me with 3 gifts. he made me close my eyes and not to open them until he said so. i feel pretty stupid covering my eyes, alone in the car while B was out getting my gift. his first surprise was a bouquet of roses and calla lilies. red roses because a girl can never have too much, white because it was the closest thing to my favourite colour and calla lilies because he knows i have a thing for it as of late. *shrug* next, he got me the last season of charmed dvd!! ok, it might be a weird gift for some people, but for me he hit the jackpot!! i LOVE charmed. (still somewhat upset that cole is no longer with phoebe.. :p) hehehe.. and lastly, he bought me shoes!! SHOES!! and just in time for Hari Raya too!! we also broke our fast at charcoal. fyi, if you wanna go there, make sure you’re really hungry. then it’ll be worth your money. haha. sigh.. yes, ladies, i found me a good one..

 30.9 with B. waiting for my family..

           B with his present from me.

 me with my flowers :D!!

 my cinderella shoes… chantek..?

           @ charcoal. if kabur the pic, B tu punya pasal. :p

 huhu..

(WARNING: the next paragraph contains highly sappy and overly sweet messages.. :D)

B, thank you. for today. for everything. we both know that i wouldn’t be who i am today with out you. you were the one who gave the skinny ass girl her confidence which in return made her love herself (maybe made her vain, but thats beside the point. hehe.) you also love me eventhough you knew i had a huge potential to be a bimbo, heck, you even witnessed more than half on my ‘moments’. you were there, laughing with me when i was happy, hugging me when i was crying. so.. thank you. being my first love and all..

always, fauz.