frustrated
there was once a time where i begged for job. i was soo bored. i had too much time on my hands.
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… this is me eating my words..
O’s
‘O’ level results are out.
lil brother scored 7 O’s. goes to show that there is a brain inside that thick skull of his. hehehe. *joke*
congrats, dd. 
hear ye, hear ye~
sigh. finally, a moment of peace. i haven’t been able to blog lately. suddenly, my boring/peaceful life was brought to a halt becaaaaaause (drumroll please..)
I GOT A JOB!! !! YAY!! ….Alhamdulillah..
i got the relief teaching job. i am now a physics teacher at my old alma mater. i’m still unsure how i feel about that due to obvious reasons but i am grateful that i am now earning $$. woohoo~ the first step of my future is well on its way. 
i know teaching can be stressful, especially if your heart is not into it,i think i have my moments. the only thing that is bringing me down is my laziness. i have this huge tendency to procrastinate and end up doing my work at the last possible minute which in turn, would result in a poor teaching job :s that has happened in more that one occasion durng my teaching practice. :p
actually, the more recent example would’ve been yesterday. i just spent the whole friday relaxing. the plan was to catch up on my lesson plans but instead, i caught up on my reading and not to mention sleep. i know. not exactly the best time but i did it anyway. 
since day one there has been loads of changes like, my sleeping schedule. i can no longer afford to be nocturnal. i mean, i have to be in school before 7.15am. ugh.
and B. 
the one good thing that came out of being unemployed is that i get to spend the time with my boyfriend. anytime, morning, afternoon and nights, 7 days a week at any time of the day AND night. sigh. but since i started work, i only saw him twice this week. however, i’m mollified for now. just spent about 5 hours with him today. hehehehehehe.
i will obviously keep blogging because well,if everyone is too busy to hear me talk, at least they can read me.
ciao~ xoxo
Happy Birthday, lil brother..
i am posting thing after 12am here, so it is officially your 16th birthday. you are finally there, semi-mature.
you are definately, hands down, the most annoying little brother a girl could ask for. (kan yan?) you seem to always, ALWAYS, demand attention when i either have none to give you OR when its just not the time. you have no idea how annoyed i was when we were kids. umi would make me babysit you because she’s always busy with the housework. since i was the eldest, it was my resposibility. at the age of 10, i grew to loathe sesame street. however, you did get me addicted to power rangers. (in my defence, the white ranger was hot.) hahaha.
but now, i am so grateful that eventhough you are still annoying (more now in your own special way), you are also smart and share a slightly lamer with a hint of witty/sarcastic sense of humor with me. :p you finally understand that if i say “not now, di.”, it means not now. you would’ve thunk it? the annoying little brat (#2) is now a teenager. good luck going through it. haha. then again, you know that no matter how many times i slam my door in your face, it will be open a few minutes later just for you.
i love you,brat. May ALLAH bless you in everything you do.
xoxo, kawa.
5 stages of grief
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@#$^$#@!@%^&^!! %$^##$%#%!! *(&(^%%$$#%$#%!!!
………..sigh. my phone’s memory is ..gone. ilang. wiped out. ka-put. gone bye bye. :’( every photos. videos. gone. all of those fun moments that was captured. gone. photos of me and B. gone. Birthdays. Graduation. Outing. gone.
GONE!! GONE!! GONE!! GONE!!!
I already went through to the first four stages of grief:
denial: “nooo.. this can’t be happening.. i can fix this..” *frantically tapping the keyboard*
anger: “stupid #%$^%$#%$*&!! what the $#%@!! why won’t you work??”
bargaining: “maybe if i…..”
depression: writing this blog..
……….siiiigh.. …..pleh..
i wanna be a princess..
ok. it has become too big of an issue for to me to ignore. a lot of people have left comments. me and atul even had a lenghty conversation about it!! so, people, tell me this:
which disney princess are you?
so let’s do this properly.. there are the main eight princess: Snow White, Cinderella, Aurora, Ariel, Belle, Jasmine, Pocahontas and Mulan. However, in 2007, Disney announced a new princess will be added:Princess Tiana from thier 2009 animated feature The Princess and the Frog, will become the first African American princess to join the ranks if Disney’s Princesses. (i didn’t know that until i wiki-ed Disney’s Princesses. hehehe.) which also means Alice from Alice in Wonderland is not a princess. which begs the question: ‘what is she then? just a mere Disney character?’ (sorry, toots. didn’t know.)
so here it is. a summary of the Princesses (which i got from their official website: here :p)
a beautiful young Princess who, in her efforts to escape the Evil Queen, befriends the seven drawfs. Her gentle ways and trust allows the Evil Queen to trick her. But her pure, lovable nature also wins her the friendship of the forest animals, the Seven Drawfs and -of course- the handsome prince. *snort* she is SOO the opposite of eyan! lovable nature? gentle ways? mwahahahahaha.. eyan is independant and strong. she doesn’t need the dwarfs.. but i can imagine her ordering the ‘dwarfs’ (dd and kaer) around. oh, and question. does the Evil Queen even have a name?? i mean, don’t you think its cruel for disney to label the stepmom as just ‘Evil Queen’? hehehehe.. although, granted, some people deserves it..
although gentle and soft spoken, Cinderella has a keen, intelligent sense of humor, which she widely keeps hidden from her cruel Stepmother and jealous Stepsisters. Finding delight in her tiny animals friends, able to sing as she works, Cinderella had true dignity. Despite moments of heartbreak and disappointment, Cinderella holds onto her hopes until goodness and beauty are rewarded and dreams that she dreamed do come true. …….ok. :ugh: that is just waay to sweet for my cynical soul. i mean, don’t get me wrong. i’m all for happiness and ‘dreams do come true’ but come onn.. then again, it is disney. hehehe..
raised under the protective eyes of the fairies, Flora, Fauna and Merryweather. Aurora is a gentle, loving and thoughtful girl. But when she has a chance meeting with Prince Phillip in the woods, her desire for romance causes her to ignore the fairies’ warning about strangers. soon after, she learns the truth about her birth and her life turns into turmoil. By the time Sleeping Beauty is awakened from her slumber by her prince, she has been transformed from a sheltered girl into a mature young woman ready to become a bride. i didn’t know that about Aurora. i remember reading the story book when i was a kid and still living in a flat. i wasn’t impressed. hehehe. i suppose i can relate to her. anything for romance. :p but, is it just me, or is the last sentence a bit disturbing? :s
Headstrong Ariel means to follow the rules, but rarely suceeds. like many teenagers, Ariels does not feel ‘understood’ and is forever trying to make her friends, especially her father, see things her way. Feisty Ariel has a mind of her own, and it’s full with romantic dreams about the world above the sea and its inhabitants. she a bit naive and sure that the human world is a happy place. ok, as a kid, Ariel was the princess that i really relate to. wanting to adventurous (i never was, but the want was there. :p ) and explore. and the fact that Prince Eric was hot kinda helped. hehehe..
Belle is as lovely as her name implies, but her natural unaffected beauty is far more than skin deep.An intelligent avid reader, Belle yearns for faraway places and exciting adventures. She’s a loyal, loving daughter and when the beast finally wins her trust, she gives him all her kindness and patience, and then realizes she also has given him her heart. ….again, gag. hehehe.. btw, toots, she does remind me of u. hahaha.. you have the same quality. maybe you SHOULD be Belle. :p
An exotic, fiery beauty, Jasmine doesn’t want much - just to marry for love and to experience life outside the palace. A strong independant young woman, she’s ready for some adventure and is quite capable of taking matters into her own hands, rejecting unsuitable suitors and sneaking off into the market place alone. She is my favourite princess!! God, how i used to watch her over and over again!! she is exactly who i wanted to be. a princess who has everything she wants and gets those that she couldn’t easily have. she had the courage that i was lacking then.
The beautiful daughter of Chief Powhatan is a playful freespirited young woman who knows every tree, waterfall and wild creature in her forest home. With a name that means ‘Little Mischief’, Pocahontas love adventure and excitement. her curiosity and independence make her a strong girl whose passionate spirit touches and changes all who know her. to me, she’s just an average princess. mcm, ‘eh.’ and thats it. i wasn’t too excited about it when it came out.
Although Mulan is as lovely as a blossom, she can’t seem to behave like the gentle daughter she is supposed to be. In fact, she is quite the tomboy, whose spirits lead her into situations that defy the trditions of her society. She loves her family, but her behaviour risks bringing dishonour to her family. lesseeee.. hmmm.. i dunno. she doesn’t remind me of anyone i know. so.. yea.. who wants to be mulan? hehe..
ok. i tried to be as brief as possible. fyi, this post took me longer than i thought. i actually spent time to do some research. :p hehehe. i realised Aurora is not as blah as i thought she was. and that i see myself in both ariel and jasmine. *prasan* oh! oh! and there’s wedding dresses designed by Disney! dreams do come true~
so tell me people, which one of these princesses resembles you the most? and which one of them do you want to be?
first day of a new year.
a few days ago, me & eyan saw this movie playing at the Hallmark channel. the movie is called snow white. i guess we were in a nostalgic mood sal we decided to watch it.
so anyway, we went to another wedding reception today. we were fanning ourselves, trying not to complain about the heat (i was failing) when eyan just suddenly said : “i just realised. i have a stepmother.” *snort* i was just about to give her the ’duh’ speech when she cut me off and continued: “no, wait. i have a stepmother. just like snow white. no, no, i AM snow white.”
hahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha.. talur anak atu. so on the way home, she kept marvelling at the fact that we have a stepmother. sure, she knew the wife existed but she never really made the connection. she kept muttering ” i’m snow white. i’m snow white.” that kid is disturbed. she even added “& you’re cinderella!!” hahaha.. ngok.
anyways, some pictures
photo of DD before eyan came along
after eyan came along “mister potatooooo”
i’m such a nerd.. 
after the cleansing of the room. hehehe.
that’s all folks!
