an old love.
haven’t been online lately. i blame the internet connection. or lack of it rather. then again kan, macam there’s not really much to update you guys on. life is pretty much the same thing: mundane. been wathching a lot of movies, tho. so far none of the movies have disapponted me. 
oh, and because little brother has a new addiction to the series friends, i’ve been watching ‘em as well.
i suppose the latest obsession that i’m goin through right now is travelling. Scotland to be precise. eversince my cousin, Abg Long, went there i had this weird fasination about it the cold highland country. hehehehe. as a kid, (i think i was 10) i wanted to go to UK but didn’t have a specific place where in UK. i figured since i have ‘connection’ there, Scotland is where i’d wanna go. theres snow there. so good enough. it didn’t occur to me that by the time i had enough kaching, Abg Long would’ve been loooong gone. hahahaha.. i felt like it just wasn’t meant to be. i wanted to, but didn’t really think much about it. then came form 5, where i had developed an interest in romance novels (or porn books, as B calls ‘em). The Bride by Julie Garwood was the first book ever. the burning love between a Scottish Laird and an English woman. that was probably the first time i blush while reading. 
suddenly, i was back in love with Scotland. imagining beautiful, untamed land. with lochs the wind nudge ripples into and open moorland expanses covered with grass. the grandeur of the highlands. *sighing wistfully* i’ve decided that its high time that i vist my old love. i finally have the $$ 
so far the plan is to visit next year. hopefully, dapat cuti awal.
its going to be a month long vacation. a week in Scotland, 2 weeks or so around europe (France, Italy and Spain) then a few days in UK. well, i’ve only obsessed to that point. a friend told me $6K should be enough. what do you think? also, any tips or places i should go?
btw, rnBs UK, you can bet your ass that i’ll be seeing you. (where else would i stay? :angel: )will msg/email you with full details as soon as its confirmed. hahahaha. iski, much?
uncles.
last saturday, i attended a doa selamat for a cousin who had just turned 5. (Happy Birthday, Areez!! )and so, long after the event ended, me and my siblings started to hang out with three of our six uncles who are all barely 2 decades older than me. ever since my parents divorced,my mother’s brothers put in more effort to know my siblings and i. its sad but at the same time, i’m glad that we are closer. particularly, to my youngest uncle, cuaji. he was 17 when i was born. he’s the cool uncle. hehehe.
anyway, i dunno how it happened but the conversation that turned nostalgic. we were doing the usual ‘teka-teki’ jokes. i realise that what we call lame, its incredibly funny to the ’slightly’ older generation. i find it cute the way my uncles laugh. especially uncle ‘nell,who has the tendency to laugh before telling. i found out that night that uncles, my dear sweet uncles, weren’t always angelic.
there are 5 of them. and they were born at least a year apart, making them very close not only as siblings but also as friends. they are the typical brothers. cuaji told me how dulu-dulu mana ada jamban. kami ‘membuang’ (i’m paraphrasing here) di sungai. me: ‘eeeeee!! di blaking atu wah???’ *pointing to the murky pond behind my nene’s house* before residing permanently where they are now, my grandparent used to live somewhere in gadong near a river. it hard for me to imagine living without air-conditioner, let alone indoor plumbing!! anyways, you know how nowadays, kids would ask their sibling to ‘dangankan’ ke toilet pasal takut? afraid of the unknown. back then, there was really something to be scared about. a freakin alligator!! (..or crocodile.. buaya ani apakan?) my uncles would always cry alligator/croc whenever they could. but there’s this one time, an amphibian really was in the vicinity. the lil brother tried to warn his big brother. the big one, who thought it was made, ignored the warning and continued with his business. the little brother ran for his life (he did give out the warning). next thing he knew, he heard a splash and saw the big brother running for his life,leaving the tiny one behind. hehehehehehe.
my uncles defense was that back then they didn’t have what we have to entertain them. so they had to make up all these different ways to amuse themselves. my cool uncle one time, bought a puppy back home. only to be greeted by the eldest sister shouting ‘HARAM!! HARAM!!’ kana samak tarus, on the spot.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
that night was just filled with happy memories from back when. my uncles reminising their younger years. they can be quite a bully!! especially with one another. my granmother even put her two cents in. she knows she her boys were difficult but oh my god. she loves them. her eyes sparkle recounting the time when my uncles were playing football and the ball accidently hit some passerby. i think she told each and everyone of them off for being ganas beforehand and warned them to be careful. so when the ball flew, all my uncles froze. nothing but their eyes moved. ‘bah,mistilah takut. kalau nene tau, inda jua lagi dapat main lagi tuu’
mwahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha.. and here i thought they were worried about the ‘victim’.
my uncles.. *shakes head* i have to admit, listening to their stories, they certainy are a creative bunch. i am definately looking forward to the next family gathering..
pleh..
sigh.
i think i have lacking/boredom syndrome. i’m 24 and i feel as if i have not done anything significant. i feel like i wanna do something exciting but i have absolutely no idea how and its frustrating!! i can no longer do anything that i want at the drop of a hat. the spontaneity in my life has gone. pffft. vanish. i feel like i wanna do something. rather than just sitting at home or doing mundane things.
sigh.
i think what sets this depressing feeling is the fact that i feel like most of my friends are moving on with their lives. or maybe i’m just an impatient girl. …..well, more so than usual.
all right, thats it. i need to get out of this brooding phase. this is a cry for help,people. what should i do??
