another girl in her own world..

sigh.

i think i have lacking/boredom syndrome. i’m 24 and i feel as if i have not done anything significant. i feel like i wanna do something exciting but i have absolutely no idea how and its frustrating!! i can no longer do anything that i want at the drop of a hat. the spontaneity in my life has gone. pffft. vanish. i feel like i wanna do something. rather than just sitting at home or doing mundane things.

sigh.

i think what sets this depressing feeling is the fact that i feel like most of my friends are moving on with their lives. or maybe i’m just an impatient girl. …..well, more so than usual.

all right, thats it. i need to get out of this brooding phase. this is a cry for help,people. what should i do??

finally!! its the last day of school! oh happy daaaay~ for the next 2 weeks, i plan to wake up (catch up on what i lost since i started working) and just enjoy my bed! hehehe.. iski  saya.. so anyway, on the last day, my school decided to hold a sport selection where basically, whoever is interested in representing their house, today was the day. we pick the best three. i was responsible on recoring for the best girl runners in 100m & 200m. awal2 pagi lagi tu. so i was done after an hour. then i spent the rest of the event wandering aimlessly around the field, finding shade. it was a freaking hot day!!

some pics:

 my view of the field, under the shade. it was peaceful. windy.

 the girls running the 400m. kiut drang belari!! hahaha..

 the boys.. i think they’re in form 1? 2?

 my first attempt of taking the boys running. hahahah.. you can only see a leg.. laju wah drang ah..

aites, thats it for now. let the relaxation begin..

last weekend has been one very tiring and busy. the very opposite if what the weekend before had been.

2 weekends ago:

• woke up late. (noon-ish..?)
• stayed in bed eventhough i was already awake.
• went out to get my photos from mizi. (3pm)
• decided to go to fundonuts. it has been receiving rave reviews. so i decided to check it out. me and eyan (lil sis) arrived around 3.45pm. and there was a line! a freakin long one!! at a freakin doughnut shop!! i was about to walk away when eyan said “what else do we have to do today?” …point taken. so we decided to stay in line and bitch about the service at the same time. everything was finally done and paid for about 2 hours later. yes, TWO hours. AAAANNDDD we bought $26 worth of doughnuts. after that long wait, you can bet your @$$ we’re gonna make it worth our money and time. anyway, we bought 2 boxes of these:

 nyaman usulnya kan??? oh, and apparently, there was some drama going on. i was, apparently, oblivious to the whole thing. well, i caught snippets of it at the end but thats pretty much it. (man, i am in my own world..). so anyway, there’s this lady in front of eyan and me. all she sed was “aku mau 3 kutak.” (”i want 3 boxes”). the person in charge was a bit slow and maybe blank. then again, it was kinda hectic. but in her defense, there are two types of boxes (6’s & 12’s). and just because of that, lady customer called her “babal.” (”idiot”.) pms, much? sheesh.. dont you know, you’re ordering food from her ?? she could spit in ‘em lady!!  and as it turns out, she was waiting for one more doughnut but rather than giving it to lady customer, she gave it to us.. MWAHAHAHAHAHA.. oh, when she was finally done, she tired to walk out in a huff, all pissed off but she was called back sal she still owed then about $5. d’oh! *slaps forehead* (yan, good game.. good game.. )

• then relaxed the rest of the day.. 

last weekend:

• woke up around 8am. (mother wanted us to be early for the 11am second cousin’s wedding reception)
• 10.30am: finally on the way to the mall. wedding reception was held @ Rizqun. (which explains the slightly less grumblings)
• before going up to the ballroom, i had to help a dear uncle find parking space in the basement area. it was hilarious in a knocks-head-against-wall kinda way. i mean, i was trying to help him find the easiest (and nearest) space but ia mcm main tabak saja. hehehe.
• i actually had fun until my uncles decided to bully on me. and my ‘gitau nene karang!’ attempt fell on deaf ears.
• went home about 2pm. thot had time to freshen’ up but Surya (my bride friend for the next 2 weeks) requested us to come earlier. so dropped my mom and eyan off, then tarus pick up Bo.
• stayed at Sur’s until 6.30pm. spent most of the time daydreaming of MY wedding.. :p

 we somehow showed up with the same colour theme. hehehe.

 Sur getting ready         me with the bride to be

then went home, picked up eyan and drove her straight to the airport. paul’s came home from KL yesterday. but his flight was kinda delayed so i stayed until ….8.30pm?

• finally around 10pm, i was home, clean and snoring

so yeaaa.. very tired.. oh, n this week pun mcm banyak events to go to.. the rest of Sur’s wedding ceremony.. my frineds are getting married lerrr… :s honestly, i’m 50-50 when it comes to marriage. i am at the stage where i can’t wait to build my life with B but also at the stage where i wanna enjoy my independence.. hmmmm.. alum jua ku beduit kan kawin wah… hheehehe. iski banar.. :p

neways, taiyod. taaaaaaa~

ok. name me your top 5 most romantic movies of all time. and by romantic, i mean the kind of movies where you always end up bawling your eyes out but still watch it over and over again. i was watching The Notebook when this thought entered my mind. then i asked atul. (she named a few then gave up halfway. hehheehe.)

anyways, after trying to think of my favourites, i realised that i can only come up with three as the ones that i really love: Ever After (a classic,no?), Just like heaven (*sappy sigh*) and  The Notebook. is that it?? i have watched many, many, many romantic films that made me cry and i can only come up with 3? huh. well, The Atonement  has potential but my little brother spoiled the ending for me. so i was already somewhat turned off at the beginning of the film (if you haven’t watch the movie/know the ending, watch it.)

realisation # 2: most of my favourite movies were originally books. no. wait. ALL were originally books. Ever After is the story of cinderella. …now i’m really curious how the movie version of PS: I Love You turned out. because i really love the book. or what are the chances that Julie Garwood’s or Judith McNaught’s books turning into a movies?

hehe. i’m a nuuurd..

so tell me. what’s your top 5? :D 

a few days ago, me & eyan saw this movie playing at the Hallmark channel. the movie is called snow white. i guess we were in a nostalgic mood sal we decided to watch it.

 so anyway, we went to another wedding reception today. we were fanning ourselves, trying not to complain about the heat (i was failing) when eyan just suddenly said : “i just realised. i have a stepmother.” *snort* i was just about to give her the ’duh’ speech when she cut me off and continued: “no, wait. i have a stepmother. just like snow white. no, no, i AM snow white.”

hahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha.. talur anak atu. so on the way home, she kept marvelling at the fact that we have a stepmother. sure, she knew the wife existed but she never really made the connection. she kept muttering ” i’m snow white. i’m snow white.” that kid is disturbed. she even added “& you’re cinderella!!” hahaha.. ngok.

anyways, some pictures

 photo of DD before eyan came along         

 after eyan came along “mister potatooooo”

 i’m such a nerd..           after the cleansing of the room. hehehe.

that’s all folks!

 isn’t he H-A-W-T??? i completely forgot about him!! back in 1998, (bulih?? 10 years ago, when i was young and dinosaurs were still roaming) while waiting for the pmb results to come out, i decided to stay at home. i mean, bahapa jua? the big exam of the year was over and done with. besides, none of my friends were coming. hehehe. so there,i was, at home & bored, when i tuned in to HBO. ada tia this new movie: dance with me. starring Chayanne and Vanessa Williams. *sigh* i feel hard for the lead actor. and since i was more kuno then i was now (B & atul,please refrain from commenting, i just know both of you have something to say) and there weren’t such things as wireless connection (not in my area, anyway), all i knew about the oh-so-dreamy guy was his name (chayanne *deep sigh*) and the fact that he was a huge star in latin america.

so, anyways, i went out shopping with the family today (ooh! lunch with Cuaji and family. hehehe.. fuuun! he’s the outgoing uncle.. ) then had dinner at escapade with B and dd. we decided to stop by at Joey Jo in qlap when i saw the dvd!! i was like, ‘waaaaaaah!! klasssik laah!!’. and yes,i bought it. after watching it, i googled him. *giggling like an annoying schoolgirl* turns out, he was born in 1971. too old for me. and it seems like he is happily married with two kids. *sad sigh* hehe, i know i’m acting like i have a shot but one can dream, no? :p

i think i’ve done enough gushing for one nite. hehehe.

 *deepest sigh* be still my heart..

the urge to post a blog just hit me eventhough i don’t exactly have a topic in mind. i’m not even sure how i feel right now. there are serious mixed emotions swirling in my head right now.

• happy because i just spent most of the night watching alien vs predator with B along with our siblings. its been days since we went out. so, it felt good to be with him again. (crappy movie,tho.)
• pissed off because pompous c***s still exist in my life. if you really are a friend, you should’ve stopped her before it got too far. whats the point of empty threats when everything is over and done with?? besides, your right to interfere was over when you just let it happened.
• excited because there’s an rnB dinner tommorrow. ….its 3am, so, later.. its waaaaaay overdue, babes.. we should’ve done it earlier.
• annoyed (to the max) because of a lazy and inconsiderate idiot who keeps assuming he’s entitled.

i feel so messed up. sigh. it could be that time of the year. i just have so much time in my hands that i could actually reflect on my life in the big picture. or maybe i just developed a self destructing habit pondering on useless things. huh.

changing the topic. Scotland is in my head suddenly. ever since i found out that Scotland is where abg long went to further his studies, i just had this weird obssesion with it. combined with my sudden interest with romance novels (or porn books as B calls ‘em. :p ) the need to know was greater. hehehe.. one day, i WILL go there. i will breathe in the cold highland air. i will take in all the misty scenary. B, your promise? so looking forward to it.ok, now its 3.30am. sleepy. gonna go now.

things that annoys me/makes me kusut:

1. its a very hot day and i am not in an air conditioned room.
2. its a very hot day, i am not in an air conditioned room and i am covered from head to toe.
3. its a very hot day, i am not in an air conditioned room, covered from head to toe and someone hogs the fan that i brought.
4. its a very hot day, i am not in an air conditioned room, covered from head to toe, someone hogs the fan that i brought and theres nothing i can do about it.
5. people blocking my car.
6. people blocking my car and taking their sweet time to move it. (tau sudah diri atu memblock krita orang, lakas-lakas tah balik!)
7. people telling me off for still mengusut-ing half an hour later. (i kusut in silence,dammit. let me kusut in peace.)
8. people eating my food without asking, only to return it after one bite. (”ambil tia balik. inda nyaman.”)

-went to a wedding reception with mother today. then to hua ho mall to buy lunch for the brat #1 and brat #2.

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PAAAAAAAAUUUUUL!! hope you have another great year of making my sister happy.. seriously, happy birthday. may Allah bless you in everything you do.

 eyan, paul and lingling..

it was aron 2am last nite. as usual, i couldn’t sleep. ever since i have nothing to do, i’ve become nocturnal. (hehe.. sound familiar, dut?) its like the middle of the night is when i am most awake. i still haven’t decided if that is a good thing or a bad thing. :p anyway, last nite (or this morning, rather) i just suddenly remembered that i bought an indian style dress. like a sari but with the stomach baring part. hehe.. apakan?~ but my point is, bulih lagi ku lupa ku bali?? the thing set me back $120 and i forgot about it??? for nearly a year!!!

i bought the dress december last year, during my first taste of freedom.  i went to KL with rnBs. *sigh* fond memories..

………ok, ew.. the minyak incident is in my head.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.. sorry.. private joke.. it was in KL that i realised that metropolitan life is not for me. man, did i complain that day.. i gues i’m just so used to getting in my car and arrive at my destination on my own time(this is a whole other topic right here). hehehe.. i was a brat that day. a reason why rnB are my frens, they know when to layan/shut up..

ok, i’m veering out of topic here. back to my dress. as soon as i remembered, i decided to look for it. so berselerak lah my room. not that it wasn’t messy in the first place.

           lawa?? hehe..i have no idea why i forgot about it.

the baju is actually size L but the shop was able to make some adjustments to the dress. unfortunately, nothing could be done to the pant-part of the outfit. i’m not kidding when i say both my legs can fit in one leg of the pants. haha. remember kakalong and eyan laughing their ass off when i showed them.

………….you know what? i think i’m gonna go and dance in front of the mirror again.

’cause i look purty…

i’m a book nerd!! i just read a 500ish-page book in 4 hours..  next book!!

so many books, so  many time..

*sigh*