haven’t been online lately. i blame the internet connection. or lack of it rather. then again kan, macam there’s not really much to update you guys on. life is pretty much the same thing: mundane. been wathching a lot of movies, tho. so far none of the movies have disapponted me. oh, and because little brother has a new addiction to the series friends, i’ve been watching ‘em as well.

i suppose the latest obsession that i’m goin through right now is travelling. Scotland to be precise. eversince my cousin, Abg Long, went there i had this weird fasination about it the cold highland country. hehehehe. as a kid, (i think i was 10) i wanted to go to UK but didn’t have a specific place where in UK. i figured since i have ‘connection’ there, Scotland is where i’d wanna go. theres snow there. so good enough. it didn’t occur to me that by the time i had enough kaching, Abg Long would’ve been loooong gone. hahahaha.. i felt like it just wasn’t meant to be. i wanted to, but didn’t really think much about it. then came form 5, where i had developed an interest in romance novels (or porn books, as B calls ‘em). The Bride by Julie Garwood was the first book ever. the burning love between a Scottish Laird and an English woman. that was probably the first time i blush while reading.

suddenly, i was back in love with Scotland. imagining beautiful, untamed land. with lochs the wind nudge ripples into and open moorland expanses covered with grass. the grandeur of the highlands. *sighing wistfully* i’ve decided that its high time that i vist my old love. i finally have the $$ so far the plan is to visit next year. hopefully, dapat cuti awal.

its going to be a month long vacation. a week in Scotland, 2 weeks or so around europe (France, Italy and Spain) then a few days in UK. well, i’ve only obsessed to that point. a friend told me $6K should be enough. what do you think? also, any tips or places i should go?

btw, rnBs UK, you can bet your ass that i’ll be seeing you. (where else would i stay? :angel: )will msg/email you with full details as soon as its confirmed. hahahaha. iski, much?

last saturday, i attended a doa selamat for a cousin who had just turned 5. (Happy Birthday, Areez!! )and so, long after the event ended, me and my siblings started to hang out with three of our six uncles who are all barely 2 decades older than me. ever since my parents divorced,my mother’s brothers put in more effort to know my siblings and i. its sad but at the same time, i’m glad that we are closer. particularly, to my youngest uncle, cuaji. he was 17 when i was born. he’s the cool uncle. hehehe.

anyway, i dunno how it happened but the conversation that turned nostalgic. we were doing the usual ‘teka-teki’ jokes. i realise that what we call lame, its incredibly funny to the ’slightly’ older generation. i find it cute the way my uncles laugh. especially uncle ‘nell,who has the tendency to laugh before telling. i found out that night that uncles, my dear sweet uncles, weren’t always angelic.

there are 5 of them. and they were born at least a year apart, making them very close not only as siblings but also as friends. they are the typical brothers. cuaji told me how dulu-dulu mana ada jamban. kami ‘membuang’ (i’m paraphrasing here) di sungai. me: ‘eeeeee!! di blaking atu wah???’ *pointing to the murky pond behind my nene’s house* before residing permanently where they are now, my grandparent used to live somewhere in gadong near a river. it hard for me to imagine living without air-conditioner, let alone indoor plumbing!! anyways, you know how nowadays, kids would ask their sibling to ‘dangankan’ ke toilet pasal takut? afraid of the unknown. back then, there was really something to be scared about. a freakin alligator!! (..or crocodile.. buaya ani apakan?) my uncles would always cry alligator/croc whenever they could. but there’s this one time, an amphibian really was in the vicinity. the lil brother tried to warn his big brother. the big one, who thought it was made, ignored the warning and continued with his business. the little brother ran for his life (he did give out the warning). next thing he knew, he heard a splash and saw the big brother running for his life,leaving the tiny one behind. hehehehehehe.

my uncles defense was that back then they didn’t have what we have to entertain them. so they had to make up all these different ways to amuse themselves. my cool uncle one time, bought a puppy back home. only to be greeted by the eldest sister shouting ‘HARAM!! HARAM!!’ kana samak tarus, on the spot.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

that night was just filled  with happy memories from back when. my uncles reminising their younger years. they can be quite a bully!! especially with one another. my granmother even put her two cents in. she knows she her boys were difficult but oh my god. she loves them. her eyes sparkle recounting the time when my uncles were playing football and the ball accidently hit some passerby. i think she told each and everyone of them off for being ganas beforehand and warned them to be careful. so when the ball flew, all my uncles froze. nothing but their eyes moved. ‘bah,mistilah takut. kalau nene tau, inda jua lagi dapat main lagi tuu’

mwahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha.. and here i thought they were worried about the ‘victim’. 

my uncles.. *shakes head* i have to admit, listening to their stories, they certainy are a creative bunch. i am definately looking forward to the next family gathering..

sigh.

i think i have lacking/boredom syndrome. i’m 24 and i feel as if i have not done anything significant. i feel like i wanna do something exciting but i have absolutely no idea how and its frustrating!! i can no longer do anything that i want at the drop of a hat. the spontaneity in my life has gone. pffft. vanish. i feel like i wanna do something. rather than just sitting at home or doing mundane things.

sigh.

i think what sets this depressing feeling is the fact that i feel like most of my friends are moving on with their lives. or maybe i’m just an impatient girl. …..well, more so than usual.

all right, thats it. i need to get out of this brooding phase. this is a cry for help,people. what should i do??

actuall had a busy day out today.. but first..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO BRAT #1. my lil sister. she turned 20 yesterday. who would’ve thunk it? that scrawny girl is 20! may your life be blessed with everything you hoped for and more. amin.

then..

congratulations to an rnB, ONA, who got engaged today! “selamat sudah..” did you find out what that means?? i really do wish that kamu “sampai ke jinjang pelamin” and happy/sehat sampai kamu be-cucu and cicit. hehehehe.. *hugs*

today is the Royal Brunei Armend Forces’s anniversary. i.e.: HOLIDAAAAAAAAY!!! but it didn’t feel like one since i was out the whole time. *sigh* which is why i’m planning to stay in the whole day tomorrow, just watching dvds. n reading. in bed. with a lot of junk food. :p cant wait!!

fiz went back to UK this evening. i think since this is the 7th? 8th? year she’s going off we didn’t cry. at all. we’re ganno miss her desperately but thanks to technology (which i am still very kuno about, mind you)  we can keep in touch more. speaking of which, i’ve been spending more time with my ladies lately. its heartwarming to know that even after 5 years of graduation (7 for some of us) we still managed to meet up and still confide with each other eventhough we don’t see each other on a daily basis like we used to. saja reflecting.. i know my post have been boring lately, but ntah… can’t seem to think of anything interesting to post AAAAAAAND if i do, there’d be no time to do it..

o well. lap y’all…

ugh. in school right now. had to stayback. because of the 3 times a week thing. too lazy to explain in full details.

anywhoo.. so here i am in school, bored. i bought my laptop thinking i could type all the lesson plans. as it turned out, i’m a fast typer. or maybe i just didnt have as many to type. hehehehe.

i think i’m finally getting the hang of working here. i mean, sure, i still complain, but its in moderation now! hehe. ….ok, i’m babbling. and hungry!! what shud i eat ah..?

meet B. this is the guy who always makes me feel like the prettiest girl in the world one minute, and makes me wanna tear my hair out in frustration the next. he’s the one guy who really gets me. he was there, holding my hands, wiping my tears during the downs and he was there jumping next to me during the ups.

today is his day. he was born today, 18th May, 24 years ago. obviously a special day, so had a surprise in mind. i decided to give him a PSP. and since i’m more than just a ‘tad’ technology-challenge, i had to ask his siblings for help. on that note, i’d like to thank fadli & nabilah again, for helping li ol’kuno me.

anyway, the idea was to present B with a crappy first gift and then surprise him with the real gift. i was planning to make him think ‘thats it??’ (i know i sound mean but it was a great idea when i first thought of it! honest!! :p) an incident that happened yesterday (a whole new blog post there) that kinda made it easier to sound annoyed for B. hehe. anyway, the crappy gift was a work shirt that was obviously too small for B to wear (fadli’s idea) and make him do stuff he didn’t wanna do. (yes, i do realise how cruel it sounds now)

me and B’s siblings went out shopping on wednesday (impromptu) when we bought the PSP… lets just say it was hard for us to bring it home with us if we want B to be fully satisfied with the gift. so we had to figure out a way to make B wanna go to the Mall on a Sunday. hence, the ‘cruel’ plan.

but he made it hard!! the plan was i give the gift #1 then we watch movie. but actually, nabilah and fadli would be waiting for us at the shop. but then he said ‘i don’t want to watch movie. its my birthday. shouldn’t we do things that I wanna do?’ hehehe. true. so, i managed to persuade him to have late lunch at swensen’s instead (also at the Mall) clever,no? wrong. i changed the plan without letting nabilah and fadli!! crap. B said my repeated messaging tipped him off. hahaha. o well.

B opend the first gift in the parking lot. being the sweetie that he is, he said my gift was ‘thoughtful. thank you, sayang.’ thoughtful???  i told you he was sweet. theeeeeeeeen we went up to swensen’s where nabilah and fadli wasn’t there yet! so i used my usual indecisiveness to stall for time. being usually annoying does come in handy sometimes. when the siblings arrive, i told B the surprise was to watch the movie together. :p he didn’t fall for that one. at least i didn’t think so. hehe. 

on the way,

me: ‘oh yea, B. your other gift.’ giving him the receipt of the real present wrapped.

B: ‘huh? apa nie?’ *tearing* (i swear to god, i thought he’s tear the receipt too.) the look on B’s face when he realised what it is, everything that i went through to do it was worth it. his face just lit up. his smile widen. his eyes brightened up. my back still hurts from his tight hug. oh, he was still in shock 10 minutes of realising. he was just like a happy lil kid. hehe.. my everything, this guy..

happy birthday, B. may your life be blessed with happiness and health always. may you live a long life (with me. hehehe.) *hugs*

i love you, cutes.

been busy. obviously. too busy to even post about my birthday! so lets seeeeeeee…

28th April (monday): pretty mundane day. just busy with work. realised that the mid-year exam is next week. so had a minor panic attack then went into action mode. preparing lessons for the days to come.

29th April (tuesday): woken up by B. at 00.15am. he did his yearly Happy Birthday song. this year, its in the most bawd-iest voice i’ve ever heard. he’s so sweet, my man.. :p and so, from that moment on, my phone didn’t stop ringing until late in the night. i feel so loved thank you so much, my dalengs.. your messages (sometimes halfway around the world ) were so full of love.. *hugs* i went home around 2pm. and spent the rest of the day with my little brother. a much needed retail therapy was conducted on this day. hehehehe.

fast forward to 2nd May (friday): 6 years and 7 months. thats how long me and B have been together “officially”. btw, i find it weird how bruneian teens get together. they have to ‘propose’ lagi. i remember mocking it yet expected it when a guy was ‘courting’ me. ok. that a whole other post right there. hehe!! anyways, since we were both kinda busy on my day itself, we decided to celebrate it on our anniversary. we actually had a few thing planned but due to unavoidable circumstances, they had to be changed. fortunately, it was memorable either way. first, we watched ‘ironman’. siiiiiiiok!! granted, it wasn’t was fun as transformers, but still!! robert downey jr did some fine acting.. theeeeeen, had lunch with B’s family with my little brother. i didnt take any pictures. heh. but yea. after lunch, me and B had the rest of the day to ourselves. being with the one you love who is pampering you. who could ask for more? :p B bought me perfume for my birthday. proof that he does listen when i talk. and his sibling’s gave me a bag. awwwww.. sweet, no? i didn’t see it coming. (note to self: don’t forget THEIR birthday!! hehehhe.)

that was almost a week ago so i dont really remember the full details. but what i do remember was how i felt. happy. and loved. and grateful. it has been a dramatic and sometimes chaotic couple of years. so i’m grareful that this year was peaceful and drama free.

i feel loved.

  a friend forwarded this to me.

OH. MY. GOD. could i look more geekier??? hehehehehe.. i’m pretty sure this photo is candid. i don’t even remember taking this photo. but it sure looked like i was happy.

btw, as if you needed help, i’m the one with the glasses..

B : “you are not the most beautiful woman in the world..”

me : *hurt* “???”

B : “you are the most beautiful woman in the universe !!!!”

i gotta admit, it did made my day..

today is the day that the reason for my being (literally) was born.

my mother was born 50 years ago today. may ALLAH bless you in everything you do.

the brats and and i celebrated it with umi, paul and B. at charcoal. as it is extremely late, i will give more detais soon.

 taaaa~

 updated:

ok, i’ve been trying to upload photos of the birthday lunch for 2 hours now and still inda mau.

$#$@%!@#!@#!$!#$

*sigh* oh well.. at least those who mattered knew we had a satisfying day..